On Sunday, my daughter and I listened to a sermon by Dr. Charles Stanley. It was centered around making time for God, through study time and quiet time….then actually waiting to hear answers from Him. It was a great sermon and the part that struck me the most is that often we pray and ask God for things, but rarely do we sit quiet long enough to hear His answer.

For the past 2 days my heart has been in such turmoil. Not about my husband, or my kids, or the fact that my best friend just had a double mastectomy to remove cancer from her body. My heart has been troubled over the response that I see about the Syrian refugees. Honestly, I didn’t know what I believed. I’d read a friend’s post on why allowing refugees is the Christian thing to do and I’d agree with that. Then, I’d read a friend’s post about how if you had 100 people on your doorstep and knew only 2 of them were bad apples, would you let them live with your family? Well, DUH. NO, I wouldn’t. So, you see my dilemma. I didn’t have a stance. I completely see and agree with both sides of this debate.

Earlier today I was doing some cleaning, and MAN, do I do some great thinking while I’m cleaning. While I was trying to figure out what I really believed- MY OWN OPINION, I recalled the sermon from Sunday. So, I asked… “God, what do you think about all of this?”. And then I just waited for Him to answer.

Still cleaning, I thought about the ultimate reward for Christians, Heaven. It’s what we are supposed to be striving for everyday, why we follow God’s word and live out his commandments. To be with Him. The ironic thing about this is, if you didn’t know better, you’d think most people who are Christians main goal was to live HERE, on Earth, forever. Don’t get me wrong. I pray for a long life. My daughter is 12 and I’ve started planning her wedding. I’ve already thought about the type of relationship I want with my sons wives. There’s a lot of traveling and learning that I still want to do.

But none of that trumps being with Him.

So if I live how He asks, and believe that His will is no mistake, then really, what do I have to fear?

Fear. That’s a spirit straight from the enemy. While there is a piece of me that has momentary freak outs about the “What Ifs”…when we find ourselves falling prey to that, we have to stand on His word. As I began to think about how fear has infiltrated the Christian culture, Joshua 1:9 came to mind. “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

So that’s my opinion. We will not get a pass from God because we were scared. Fear is not an excuse to not live and love the way He commanded.

One of the most beautiful souls I’ve ever known, Dana, went to be with the Lord in September. After thinking of that scripture, I instantly remembered her saying “Being brave and courageous means doing it afraid”. This is scary stuff, no doubt. There is definite need for high intelligence in this situation, we should be SMART about this. I know a lot of people have an issue with the President. I also know that no matter your opinion, you don’t know what the process will be or what intelligence they have. You don’t even know what intelligence they have on YOU. So let’s not all pretend to be CIA Agents and have inside knowledge.

I’m not a perfect Christian, in fact I’m FAR, FAR from it. The last thing I want is for a tragedy to occur- not just here, ANYWHERE. I want to live, to see my children grow up, and I want to feel protected and safe. But Christians, we have to remember is that our Protector is not our government.

The last time I saw Dana, as we were getting ready to leave, my friend Amber was talking to her about one of her friend’s whose son had cancer. Dana looked at her and asked “How is his heart with Jesus?”. I have a strong feeling that the better our hearts are with Jesus, the easier it will be to live as He lived and love as He loved.

I don’t know about you, but when I think about what’s on the other side of any tragedy- being with Him… it’s not the worst thing. In fact, it’s what I’ve SAID that I’ve wanted since I became a Christian. So I plan to focus on keeping my heart right with Jesus. Live and Love the way I’m commanded. Try my hardest to not give in to the constant fear machine. I’m determined for Him to welcome me home one day.

welcome home

It’s not the popular answer. It’s not everyone’s opinion. But it is mine.

Kia Young

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